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© 2000
Yvonne Bruce
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Scott's apartment was a noisy place to
live, even though he had every one of its noises memorized, and even though
most of the building's tenants seemed to be retired and frail. His refrigerator
had a ghost: its mechanism made hollow whistling noises like the soundtrack
to a deep space movie, and the circulating coolant always sounded like
it was dripping heavily into the space between the fridge and the wall.
It was so loud and so convincing he still sometimes checked it, even though
he knew it didn't leak. Since Scott was on the top floor, next to the
roof, and in the corner apartment to boot, there was a lot of creaking
and crackling, even without the faintest breeze. He heard footsteps above
him a lot (well . . . especially when he was alone), but he knew the security
guard checked up on top for kids when he made his rounds because the roof
was off limits to the tenants. And from his window he saw there were lots
of vents cut into the brick outside, in the space between the ceiling
and the roof, and birds nested there. On the weekends he could hear them
scrabbling above him all day long. The underside of the roofline was crusted
with wasps' nests, too; the little buggers cruised around his windows
from sunrise to sundown in the summer. They were graceless as bumblebees,
flying into the glass constantly with little clicking noises. He thought
he could hear them at night, but that was probably just imaginationthey
had to sleep sometime.
And this was the South, after all. Scott
had palmetto bugs the size of rats trying to get in from the roof, as
well as from the usual internal points of ingress, like the drains and
the gaps around the pipes and ceiling fixtures. He'd caulked and sprayed
and prayed and still they got insidehow they squeezed themselves
through spaces that the little old kitchen roaches could hardly manage
was something he never liked to think about. And this had been an especially
hot summer; there'd been two brief swarms of other bugs that just got
inside somehow, and clumped in a corner of the window like a plague of
termites. The newspaper had even run a humorous story about a kind of
insectlove bugs, they were called, because they always flew linked
togetherthat had overrun everyone in town for a two-week period.
But he guessed that only in the land of Faulkner could they understand
that kind of humoryou had to be a native, maybe, and he wasn't.
In fact, when he was still a brand-new southern transplant he'd complained
to the building's exterminator that there were miceScott had seen
the droppingsand the man had laughed like this was the funniest
Yankee-ism he'd ever heard: "Naw, that's jes the powmettuh bugs."
There was a room in the apartment that
was like the fridge: it had a ghost, too. It was the spare bedroom Scott
used as an office and it seemed to get all the bugs and all the noises.
The room was perfectly square except for a little bump-out that didn't
correspond to a "bump-in" in the kitchen, which was the room
adjacent. He wondered what was in that space. It didn't help his imagination
that there was a painted-over square on the short side of the bump-out
that looked like laundry chute door (except there'd never been a handle
on it that you could tell . . . not to mention, fifteen floors is a pretty
long drop for laundry). It had been not only painted over but screwed
shut. He heard a lot of noises coming from behind it. Before he caulked
the bejesus out of it, he'd imagined what it might be like to unscrew
those screws, scrape off those years-old layers of paint, and just open
it.
What would come out?
And it was the South, remember? Even fifteen
floors up you got the settling cracks winding around and meandering through
your place. The buildingnot that old, but buildings age rapidly
in humidityused to have a different configuration of apartments
. . . what configuration, he couldn't tell, but the laundry chute thing
suggested it; so did the sealed-up door between his place and the neighbor's,
like the double doors linking hotel rooms. Where the old connection was
sealed up the cracks went crazy, deepening to chinks in places, and leaving
flakes of plaster and paint on the carpet. Every time she cranked up her
music the cracks seemed to worsen.
Going to sleep in a place like this, even
in a house full of people, was a matter of getting used to your surroundings.
But when you were on your own . . .
The first night wasn't too bad. A few extra
beers before bedtime usually took care of the gremlins, and it had been
a long day. But even drifting off to sleep Scott found himself checkmarking
the noises he heard on a mental list: that's the clock in the living room
(how anyone could find that noise comforting was beyond him; he thought
of it as the aural equivalent of the old Chinese Water Torture trick),
that's the creepy noise of the refrigerator cycling on, that's the roof
creaking (the building's flat roof with its constant leaks was just going
to cave in one of these days; he had nightmare visions of all those creatures,
grown huge and bold in the southern heat and darkness of the crawl space,
pouring out on him in a flood of rotten wood and plaster), that's probably
the window glass shrinking in the frame with a little popping soundthat,
or a new kind of bug invasion. That's . . . that must be the guard taking
a turn around the roof.
On his second night alone, Scott forewent
the beer, even knowing that would make getting to sleep almost impossible.
In the place of alcohol he took the next best thing to bed: his books.
Unfortunately, the books he favored, the kind he could lose himself in
enough to relax, were exactly the wrong kind for sleeping alone: stories
of monsters and bloodsuckers, mad killers with a taste for human flesh,
things in the sewers, black-hearted women who murdered their men.
But they were still a powerful drug, and
he felt himself drifting, his head nodding over the paperback. The noises
from the empty apartment were readily identifiable, and it was early yet;
people outside were moving around. There was the misleading sound of the
neighbor shutting his front door. He compulsively jiggled the knob to
make sure the lock had caught, a sound that had woken Scott from a deep
sleep numerous times, thinking someone was testing his door. The
other neighbor's TV was going (she was the one with the loud music), and
he could hear the white noise of people moving in the hallway: crackling
bags from the grocery store, jingling keys, whining children. He heard
the thock of tennis balls from the public courts right outside, which
were open 'til eleven. From everywhere Scott could hear the sounds of
sirens. The city's medical center was only a few blocks away.
But as the city finally slept, other noises
came out to play. The refrigerator seemed to realize he was alone and
its echoing noises played like a theremin. The clocks, all of them analog,
none of them synchronized, ticked like a telltale heart. The footsteps
above him . . . Goddammit! where were they coming from? Scott thought
maybe he ought to ask one of the security guards about it, just to make
sure. It was creepy as shit to hear footsteps over your head night after
night when you lived on the top floor.
The sleepy feeling fled. Scott picked up
his book and read, read, read until he got it back. It wasn't a windy
night, thank goodness, but there was a breeze, and the building creaked
like a ship at sea. Most of the creaking was soothing, but occasionally
there was a sharp snap that pulled him toward wakefulness again.
And then . . . then, just as he drifted between consciousness and sleep,
he heard a scrabbling directly above him. He kept the covers over his
head while he strained to listen more closely. It just sounded the same
again: the delicate patter of little feet, like the whiskery scratch of
blowing leaves. It was hard to be sure exactly what it was because the
sounds were directly overhead for such a short time, only a second or
two.
But another hour later, Scott was almost
sleepy again. He'd nearly finished his book. His neck was stiff, his sleep,
if it came, would be shallow because he couldn't unwind. But he had to
get up for work tomorrow, so a little sleep was better than none. And
he was almost there, the noises around him occupying the part of his mind
that wouldn't quite go under: the skritching and scrabbling, the creaking
and settling, the yawning pops from the windows and joists.
And then the footsteps again, this time
comfortable-sounding steps, steps that belonged, like someone was climbing
the creaky old stairs at grandma's house, someone who had grown up in
that house and relished every squeaky step. What was going on? Who could
be up there? He listened, not quite coming awake yet. The steps were purposeful,
those of someone walking toward all the little destinations of the houseto
the bathroom, to the kitchen for a drink, to the front door to make sure
it's locked. Okay, fine: maybe the guard checked all the little cubbyholes
and crawlspaces up there in turn; gave any doors upstairs a shake. Scott
had never been on the roofin fact, an alarm went off if anyone tried
the access door. There could be anything up there. So the footsteps were
weird, yes, but not, given his limited knowledge, inexplicable.
Until they began running. When they first
sped up, they must have been way over on top of the living roomor
even over a neighbor's. At least, that's what he figured, until they ran
up right on top of him and he woke, realizing he'd been hearing them for
some time.
They were running like madbig, heavy
footstepsback and forth and back and forth and around in circles
and then in meaningless patterns above his head, faster and faster. By
now he was wide awake, and he lay on his back with his feet tucked in
like a turtle's, his hands clutching the covers around his neck, his eyes
bulging, moving back and forth, trying to track his unknown neighbor's
progression. A low, throaty sound came out of his mouth, and now the terror
was becoming perfect, because . . . because . . .
Because the footsteps were coming from
behind the walls, up and down, faster and faster; Scott's new neighbor
must be some kind of fly, crawling around and around, back up over the
ceiling, now down the other wall, running and running.
Needless to say, he didn't fall back to
sleep that night. The next morning he was
too tired to indulge any horrific fantasies. He gulped down as much coffee
as he could before it was time to leave. But on his way to the elevator
he noticed an interesting thing. The fire stairs door close to his apartment
was chocked open. Peering out the doorway, he heard voices drifting down
from the stairs above his floor, the ones that continued to the roof.
He climbed the stairs and saw that the roof access door was chocked open,
too, its fire alarm apparently disconnected. The voices he heard more
clearly now were comforting ones, lots of "Yeps" and "Naws"
and hawks and sniffs. He could hear the bang of tools, too, and the roar
of machinery, so he climbed down and continued toward the elevator. The
workmen's being up there was not really surprising; there were always
people up there tinkering with the monster air-conditioning unit or the
satellite dishes. It just seemed . . . interesting that they were there
after what he'd heard last night.
Scott made an even more interesting discovery
by the elevator. There was another door open, one he'd not really noticed
before. It stood between the trash chute and the elevator. He'd assumed
it was a storage or supply room. But this door, too, opened onto a set
of stairs leading to the roof, and he could hear the same beefy sounds
of repair coming from this opening. It occurred to him that there were
probably four or five roof access doors on this floor. There would be
at least one more on the far end of the corridor, accessible from the
fire door that corresponded to his, and there was probably another door
that corresponded to this newly discovered one, too.
Scott's elevator arrived with a ping,
and he tried to put everything he'd seen and heard since last night into
its own little mental storage room and lock it up tight.
When he returned from work that afternoon,
dreaming of a nap, the access door by the elevator was still chocked open,
daylight flooding in, and the floor nearby was dotted with leftover tools,
as though a party had spilled out into the hallway. None of the workers
seemed to be around, so he took a quick look up and down the corridor,
stepped through the doorway, and climbed the stairs.
Once on the roof, Scott simply stood where
he was are and turned in a circle. Nothing seemed unusual, though he would
hardly know what was usual up here. There was the AC housing, taking up
half the roof, with doors spaced along it. He noticed another trapdoor,
like the one he had come through, and the firedoor housing down at his
end of the hall. He walked over to it, uneasy, not wanting to be too close
to the edge of the building, which was surrounded by a lip only two feet
high. He peered over it for a moment, heart pounding. You are this close
to death, he thought. This close. The tarred roof was broken up by cracks
and patches, and the thought recurred to him that all kinds of multi-legged
creatures might be squirming through into the apartments below. Nothing
else looked odd or out of place, so he retraced his steps and went home.
That night, the footsteps above the bedroom
began at the same time as the night before: the faint, brief scratchy
sounds so hard to identify, strengthening to the sounds of regular steps,
as if there were a house above him instead of roof and sky. Scott had
skipped the nap so he could fall deeply asleep at bedtime, but once the
sun went down, the worry he had closed off earlier came roaring out.
The footsteps quickened until once again
they were running, back and forth, from one of end of the apartment to
the other, then in circles and figure eights right above his head, so
fast how could they be human? He hardly noticed when a few tears of fatigue
and frustration run down his face. Those steps were laughing at him, laughing,
because they knew he was stuck until daylight, and he knew it, too; in
fact, his weariness almost won out, and he started to nod off, confusedly
thinking that perhaps this pattering of feet was just a new feature of
the apartment, like the restless refrigerator and window frames.
But once he did, the steps above his head
became poundings, the sound of someone stomping up and down in a rage.
Scott was wide awake now, listening as the pounding stopped and the steps
resumed, now circling his head, now flitting down the sides of the walls
again. He heard himself whining in panic like a cringing dog, and that
decided him. Anything was better than this. He got up, dressed quickly,
and headed for the front door, turning on lights as he went. He could
hear the footsteps behind and above him, fainter now, hesitating. He peered
out the spyhole. Nothingbut the fire door was still chocked open.
The security guard should have closed that hours ago on his rounds. It
was after midnight now.
He stepped out into the hallway, leaving
his front door cracked open. He looked indecisively at his neighbor's
door. The neighbor was a great guy, but Scott wasn't ready to wake him
up to ask if he'd heard the ghostly footsteps from the phantom sixteenth
floor. He walked through the fire door and took the stairs up. There were
no joshing workmen calling out at this hour, but he could feel the night
air rushing downstairs, which meant that, for whatever reason, the roof
access door had been left open.
When he reached the landing opposite it,
there was something wrong, something different from this morning. He still
felt the wind blowing past him, but all he could see through the open
door was a rectangle of blackness. The roof outside should have been visible
in the light from the hallway, but there was just nothing to see. Worse,
it didn't look like nighttime blackness out there, and that breeze didn't
smell like the outside air coming in. From where he stood he should have
been able to see stars or planes or lights from other buildings, even
with the glare cast by the inside light.
Scott leaned out slightly. Nothingjust
more emptiness. Gripping the sides of the doorway, he put out a foot;
it came down on a surface that felt like the rooftop. Sliding his foot
from side to side like a minesweeper, he felt more of the same. There
was grit and the slightly sticky roughness of a tar surface under his
shoe, so he stepped outside.
It was black as a mineshaft, and he groped
ahead of him with his arms, trying to ignore the voice inside that whispered
this was all wrong. There must be some kind of tarpaulin covering over
the work they're doing, he thought, like a canopy extending outward from
the door. That would explain the darkness. Scott saw a tiny square of
light ahead and to the left, toward the end of the building. He walked
toward it, his hands still waving like antennae, his mind clutching at
the canopy explanation, even though by now he realized it simply couldn't
be. There wasn't any covering set up this afternoon, and he couldn't feel
anything enclosing him, no matter how far to the left and right he strayed.
It was just black, and that not-quite breeze was rushing past. His eye
remained fixed on the light, which now he saw was coming from behind a
door through a small hole.
There was no conceivable explanation for
the door, which seemed to be hanging in outer space. Everything was black,
and the light cast by the little hole illuminated nothing but more of
the blackness; it was like Milton's hell, full of visible darkness. Scott
groped; there was a doorknob. It turned freely, and he pushed.
First he felt fantastic relief and, dimly,
satisfaction that he had found an explanation for those crazy footsteps.
There was a workroom of some kind up here. God only knew what people were
doing inside it at this hour: looking at porn videos, playing poker, whatever,
but he could hear the faint, normal sounds of movement in the distance,
and there were lights on in the back, reaching out to provide faint illumination
all the way to where Scott was standing. Leaving the door open behind
him, he walked forward cautiously. He was in some kind of entrance hallway:
there were smooth, painted walls on either side of him, and carpeting
beneath his feet. That didn't seem right. Why would anybody take that
much care of a toolroom or electrical access room or even a breakroom
or whatever the hell this was? Scott could hear someone walking around.
"Hello? Is anybody here? Hey! Anybody?"
No one responded, but the footsteps stopped
suddenly, and he could almost feel that someone listening. His warning
voice was whispering to him again, but he stepped forward despite it.
He didn't even realize he was afraid until he noticed his hands were touching
the walls alongside him for support.
"Hey! Hello?"
He was coming to the end of the short hallway
now, and when he looked carefully around the corner he noticed two things
at once: this place was not any kind workroom or storage facility, and
those footsteps that were beginning again were coming toward him, faster
and faster. His panicked eyes took in the furniture, dirty and out of
place. There was an overturned chair with stuffing bubbling out of the
rips in the cushion. The walls were hung with pictures, all hung askew.
One of the frames was full of cracked glass, another had its glass intact
but covered with dried splashes of something dark. He was turning away
now, too slowly, much too slowly, heading back for the door he came in
as those footsteps moved faster and closer. As he ran for the open door,
the light from behind him picked out some letters on the front of it.
16R gleamed in the dimness. It was an apartment number.
The footsteps were right at his heels.
Moaning now, he turned to look over his shoulder. That was a mistake.
What he saw drained the urge to run right out of him, drained his bladder,
drained his thoughts. As he fell to the carpeted floor, sobbing, and waited
for the end, Scott looked up at something he knew no one had ever seen
before.
And no one would, at least until a new
tenant was found for 15R.
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